That Long Already

Feels like three years ago since I last wrote in my blog....actually it's been over a year so technically that still is a long time. I'm not much of a writer; never was one in the first place. My vocabulary or choice of words on how to express certain things in my head are difficult to come by. In high school my strongest subject was Math. I was, still could be, a genius with numbers. Well.....I wasn't really a genius, but for sure I would have to say math was my strongest subject and even my favourite subject. English, creative writing, or whatever you call it was never really appealing to me. I enjoyed reading books and all but me writing stuff down was something I never looked forward too. I have difficulties expressing myself as some people might already know, whether its in writing or in words, I just can't get over the express myself part. Something happend in my life I guess that made it difficult for me to do so. I think this carried over to writing as well.
One other thing about writing and me is I only write stuff down when I have to. Say for example a huge research paper, a thesis, an essay, proffesional letters.......stuff you have to do. Stuff that I am responsible for I guess you could say. Otherwise I have difficulties expressing and sharing or worse yet I'm just too plain LAZY.
I tried hard just to write this little thing down. I think I'm getting a headache now. LOL. Did I make sense? Its ok if I didn't. I'm not even sure myself if I did or not.